I am fired... Hope I write it correct. I was too slow to work there. The most sad in this is that I felt, that it's not my world, but Zsú was too pushful, and she was right, that my actually job gives not enough money... but now I stayed here without job, without money and I feel so broken, and to afraid to tell the truth to my parents.

It was so degrading, when my boss after a dirty room wanted me to speak english, because she didn't believe, I can use this language...

And I had a very big debate with L, and I left him at a party and slept by R after I drunk a lot...I wanna tell, that everythings allright, but I don't know what to do now... He was very kind today. Before I told my mother, what's up with my job, I was afraid, that she will send me back to Zomba, because I'm too hopeless. And he told me, that I can move to him in that case. He is so pretty. But I'm too sad to repay it.

I'm sad, confused, lonely and so on...